Venting

I have not posted in over one year.  That has to change.  Since being promoted to Editor at my job, I realize how much I miss writing... words.  It is my outlet to a world without an ear.

I have so many things on my mind, but the topic that is most prevalent is the topic of relationships.  Now, I do not want to spill my guts about my relationship.  No, wait, I do.  Sometimes it helps to open up to strangers.  I wont go into specifics; I just need to get some things off of my chest.

A little background about me: I am 27.  I have only previously been in one committed relationship.  (I do not count the relationships I was in that I had no idea I was in).  Before and after my first relationship, I just dated and lived my life.  Sort of a reformed "playerette," if you will.  I am currently in a committed relationship and truly in love.

Mystery man's background: ???????????????????????????????????  All I know is that he has been hurt in a way that a man gets hurt and does not come back from.  I try my best not to focus on the past, but we are at a point where issues have arisen and it should be discussed so that I can better understand him.

>>>>Fast forward to present time>>>>>>

We met at work, but I never paid any attention to him outside of work.  After about one year of knowing one another, he started flirting.  I still did not feed into it because his reputation preceeded him.  (Everyone felt the need to report his "dealings" to me. I never heard anything that was too bad; just that he dated a lot of the women we worked with.  I just soaked it all in and kept it moving).  He asked me to hang out after a year and a half.  We didn't end up hanging out on the agreed date, but met up one month later.  He did not know I moved to Atlanta, but the stars aligned and he had a business trip coming up.  All of that waiting and ignoring and flirting, and the first time we hung out it was a wrap.

I was still stuck in my ways and the situation was long distance, so it started off exactly how all of my other situations start off.  I am a good woman and I exude that so guys fall hard and fast.  We were both smitten, but he was the only one who showed it.  He poured his heart out to me often and occasionally I would give a little.  Don't get me wrong, because I am not a serial dater or a woman that has to be in a relationship, I know exactly how I'm going to deal with a man as soon as I see them in their element.  With my guy, we were in a relationship that day.  Of course I never said that aloud.