I do not consider family to be a word directly related to a shared bloodline... that just means you are relatives. My family consists of a concoction of random people that stretch across the globe and not even 1/2 of them are my relatives.
Yes I have had a rough upbringing... just a tough life in general. However, I am not angry, sad or depressed about my journey. I am appreciative and blessed to have gone through those things because they have molded me into the GREAT woman that I am today!
As I sit here with my eyes full of tears due to some recent and horrifying news, I am just disgusted at myself for taking the simple things in life for granted.
I don't call at least once a week because "you know I'm not a phone person."
I hardly visit because "you know my life is a busy mess."
When I do visit its only for a hot minute because "you know I have a bunch of other stuff to do."
I never say I love you unless you say it first because... Well, that's my own issue.
I don't say much because "I don't talk that much..." even tough my mind goes a million miles/minute... and the list goes on. We all have excuses.
Life is way too short, but you never really understand the full meaning of this saying until it hits home and you almost lose someone you call your family.
I never want to feel this way again so from now on...
I am going to call more;
Check on you more often;
Talk/laugh with you more;
Visit more often;
Show and tell you that I appreciate and Love you!
There are some people that I don't really deal with like I used to if at all but I do still have love for you so I'll swallow my pride...
I apologize if I've ever hurt you or made you feel unappreciated.
I apologize if I wasn't as good a friend as you were to me.
I apologize for not being there.
I apologize for... whatever it is that eradicated our relationship.
I still have love for you and I'm here if you ever decide you want to build again.
...just thought I'd start speaking my heart and not just my mind.
I'm praying for u J... Idk what I would've done if u left :'-(
Yes I have had a rough upbringing... just a tough life in general. However, I am not angry, sad or depressed about my journey. I am appreciative and blessed to have gone through those things because they have molded me into the GREAT woman that I am today!
As I sit here with my eyes full of tears due to some recent and horrifying news, I am just disgusted at myself for taking the simple things in life for granted.
I don't call at least once a week because "you know I'm not a phone person."
I hardly visit because "you know my life is a busy mess."
When I do visit its only for a hot minute because "you know I have a bunch of other stuff to do."
I never say I love you unless you say it first because... Well, that's my own issue.
I don't say much because "I don't talk that much..." even tough my mind goes a million miles/minute... and the list goes on. We all have excuses.
Life is way too short, but you never really understand the full meaning of this saying until it hits home and you almost lose someone you call your family.
I never want to feel this way again so from now on...
I am going to call more;
Check on you more often;
Talk/laugh with you more;
Visit more often;
Show and tell you that I appreciate and Love you!
There are some people that I don't really deal with like I used to if at all but I do still have love for you so I'll swallow my pride...
I apologize if I've ever hurt you or made you feel unappreciated.
I apologize if I wasn't as good a friend as you were to me.
I apologize for not being there.
I apologize for... whatever it is that eradicated our relationship.
I still have love for you and I'm here if you ever decide you want to build again.
...just thought I'd start speaking my heart and not just my mind.
I'm praying for u J... Idk what I would've done if u left :'-(
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